My Days are a mixture of......

My days are a mixture of good & bad, of feeling good & feeling bad, days where the pain is better, but most of the days are days full of pain & sleeping. Those days I have that are good are few & far between, those days my 'acting' is good. I try so hard to not show my pain to my d/hubby. He worries too much about me. There are days that I feel like I am being torn apart, the pain is great in my back, it runs down my legs, I must remember that God is with me.

I have days where I just don't take my medicine so I can do what I need to do. However, my back & legs hurt, hurt so bad, that walking, sitting, even taking a hot bath hurts so much I just have a hard time getting up & doing anything. I just want to stay in bed, cover my head & sleep it away, which doesn't work have the time. I get so tired, so tired of the pain, but I know there are others in worse shape than myself, those fighting cancer, fighting pain that is 10 times worse.

I must remember to smile, let God's peace fill my soul, because it is of him I am here, it is of Him that I live. He has blessed me with my life & the wonderful love of my husband. He blessed me so richly with my d/hubby, so blessed. He is the love of my life, a true blessing from God, my soul mate, my best friend. God gave us both to each other.

I love to walk in the woods, to smell the leaves as they turn in the fall, the colors they turn, God's color splash to the world. As Spring comes, the leaves come out, the flowers of the dogwood bloom. Those trees are soooooo pretty, their flowers a beauty beyond compare. God has truly blessed us all, blessed us with the beauty of all the seasons. The soft snow as it falls to the ground, the rains of summer that waters the world He has made. Why we take it for granted I will never know.

I read & must remember the peace the following scripture gives me. I hope you can find peace in it too as you read it.

Psalm 27
A Psalm of David.

1 The LORD is my light and my salvation;

Whom shall I fear?

The LORD is the strength of my life;

Of whom shall I be afraid?

2 When the wicked came against me

To eat up my flesh,

My enemies and foes, They stumbled and fell.

3 Though an army may encamp against My heart shall not fear;

Though war may rise against me, In this I will be confident.

4 One thing I have desired of the LORD, That will I seek:

That I may dwell in the house of the LORD All the days of my life,

To behold the beauty of the LORD, And to inquire in His temple.

5 For in the time of trouble He shall hide me in His pavilion;

In the secret place of His tabernacle He shall hide me;

He shall set me high upon a rock.

6 And now my head shall be lifted up above my enemies all around me;

Therefore I will offer sacrifices of joy in His tabernacle;

I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the LORD.

7 Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice!

Have mercy also upon me, and answer me.

8 When You said, “Seek My face,”

My heart said to You, “Your face, LORD, I will seek.”

9 Do not hide Your face from me;

Do not turn Your servant away in anger;

You have been my help;

Do not leave me nor forsake me,

O God of my salvation.

10 When my father and my mother forsake me,

Then the LORD will take care of me.

11 Teach me Your way, O LORD,

And lead me in a smooth path, because of my enemies.

12 Do not deliver me to the will of my adversaries;

For false witnesses have risen against me,

And such as breathe out violence.

13 I would have lost heart, unless I had believed

That I would see the goodness of the LORD

In the land of the living.

14 Wait on the LORD;

Be of good courage,

And He shall strengthen your heart;

Wait, I say, on the LORD!

God's peace be with each of you this night. Those who are in pain, may you know that He will give you comfort this night, in the days & weeks to come. He can & will help you through the rough times, the times where your pain is over-whelming. He will bless you with days where the pain is not so bad. My prayers are with you all.